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we grow in a gleam

by r beny

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AzureAzure One of the most hauntingly beautiful tracks ever produced. Absolutely mesmerizing and heartbreaking. Favorite track: we grow in a gleam.
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The Lifted Index This track is magic. It has clearly been constructed with great care. Every note, every sound, every stretch of silence, is immaculately executed. r beny is a true master of the form.
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Anthony Childs Remaining just on the edges of consciousness and almost imperceptibly commanding your attention (if you're doing something else while listening) while simultaneously opening the pathways for mental activity and travel. You'll put it on to turn off your mind but eventually it will do the opposite. Favorite track: we grow in a gleam.
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r beny is an ambient electronics project from Northern California-based musician Austin Cairns. It is an outlet for the processing of the volatile conditions of emotion and nature, primarily expressed through the use of synthesisers, samplers, and other electronic instruments.

Artist notes:

This piece of music is a map. Tones, textures, and echoes representative of a geography and a time. (0:00) A river of reflection begins to emit a sparkling glow. I think of you in passing sometimes, sometimes often. A singer hums in duet with the light of the river. (5:16) The singer hums alone. (5:50) Alone in the pavilion. The corridors of memory are filled with static, its resolution degrading softly in time. (9:02) The buildings are long gone. A forest knoll, roots and soil woven. I’m sorry things didn’t end up the way we thought it would. (13:36) Every wave erodes the land (16:40) until there is nothing left, but seafoam and dust. (17:00) The singer hums along with the organ, somewhere in a meadow jutting out over the sea.

I consider deep listening as listening with entities other than your ears. With your mind, your body, and your soul. Resonating with recorded material on a deeper frequency.

Written and recorded from December 2019 to December 2020, at home in Northern California.

Composed with Novation Summit, Tasty Chips GR-1, Ciat-Lonbarde Cocoanuts, Oto Bam, Marantz PMD-420 tape recorder.


released April 11, 2021


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